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I want to inspire people. I want someone to look at me and say, " Because of you, I dint give up"

Oh my, this caption really touches my heart.

Can I be someone's inspiration?
In what aspect?
Is it possible?

I cant take care of myself but then I want to help other people? Hehh, just forget about it.
But I do enjoy when people share their problems with me. Just listen and learn from their story.
People can give advice but the best support is through actions.

Start from basic, I really need to put myself together now. Have a stable spiritual and emotional status.

Just remember how stupid I am during my highschool. Do I really want to repeat the same mistakes?

I got goals. The reasons for me to stay strong in facing this life. I need to be strong. The people wont be nice as you thought they will be.

I got friends, here in USM but they are just friends. Yes, indeed I can learn a lot about their personality, behaviour etc but.........it is not the same. Friends who really can accept my flaws. Friends that I can really trust with all my heart. Although now i have problems in trusting people.

Most importantly, I need to trust myself. How can people trust you if you dont trust urself? Be someone with 'hati kering', taking care of others nicely although they treat you like shits. Be a person people wont forget. Can you do it?

I guess there is more to come. You are just being childlish. Please start growing up Rasya.

RASYA FARHANAH

Inferno by Dan Brown

Assalamualaikum and good day everyone.

This time around I'm gonna share with you guys a quote I stumbled upon while reading The Inferno by Dan Brown.

"The human mind has a primitive ego defense mechanism that negates all realities that produce too much stress for the brain to handle. It's called denial." - Sienna Brooks, a fictional character in Inferno by Dan Brown.

Contoh mudah ialah tidur. Siapa boleh jamin sebelum dia tidur, dia akan bangun esok hari? Jam loceng yang dikunci itu menunjukkan suatu pengharapan kepada hari esok. Biar mati itu pasti, tapi oleh kerana kita tidak tahu bila ia akan berlaku, we're in denial. We set alarm to wake up because we can deny the fact that we might die in our sleep. Maka pengharapan dan penafian wujud dalam masa yang sama. Jika tiada penafian, mungkin kita tidak akan tidur pun.

Dan Brown is one of my favorite authors (not that I have many since I'm not really an avid reader). I like the way he puts his words. I also like the way he included history in his books. I like facts (doesn't mean I'm good at memorizing them), so his books kinda drawn me to it. I guess that's all.

Yours truly,
Mierah aziz.

P/s: psssttt I have Instagram account now. Do follow me at @mierahaziz_ . See ya ;)

Why you should start speaking in English.

"Allah honors every child of Adam, who are we to look down on others?" - Nouman Ali Khan.

Assalamualaikum wbt and hello :)

So today I’m going to talk about my English.

I was a student of SK Zainab 1. As for English and science subjects, well sometimes maths, my teachers always used English as their primary teaching language. And some of my friends already could speak in English very fluently at that time.

According to my English subject grades, my English was not bad at all. Well, my writing English. But, I had a problem when it came down to my speaking English.

Honestly, I didn’t do much talking in English – and I admit, I regretted it. Another way of putting this is I didn’t practice to speak in English.

I had joined a few English-related activities such as storytelling & choral speaking. My pronunciation was great at that time – well, I mean you won’t be hearing my kelatenese accent getting mixed up with my English accent.

But why this girl who has good grade in English and good pronunciation did not practice to speak in English?

Aha!

Because I was scared. I was embarrassed. I was shy. I did not have confidence. Funny *roll eyes*.

When I was in MRSM Pengkalan Chepa (always PC lols), I found out that the learning environment there was very English.

We had morning calls every weekday mornings. The emcee spoke in English. The teachers who spoke during the morning calls also used English. I was at awe (this was when I was in form 4).

Then, I got to know a few of my batchmates & seniors who can speak in English like how most of us can speak in Malay. They were awesome.

But, but, nahh I still won’t speak in English at that time. Every time my teachers told my classmate and I to do presentation in English, I always managed to escape somehow. I know right? I’m good at escaping. Lols.

So, basically, my speaking English was terrible.

Coming to Kolej MARA Banting (KMB) did make me nervous. Why? Because these people are no joke. If in PC, there were only several people who can speak English very, very, very well (note how many ‘very’ I put there), KMB has lots of them. It would be a humiliation if you do not know how to speak in English – like this person here: ME!

Ye laa… dah interview pun in English. And kitorang mmg akan fly ke Anglophone countries. So, yeah, most of them can speak in English very well.

Here, we are needed to make a lot of presentations. Also, we have a lot of activities that require everyone to speak in English, such as Interactive Oral Presentation, also known as IOP.

Aha!

When I was in my 1^st semester, we did a debate. Well, the format was like a debate but we called it 'discussion'.

I’m used to debat, as I was a pendebat myself, but to debat in English was pretty much scary.

Rinduuuuuuuuuuuuu. Hai Hadi XD

But then, I needed to do it anyway. So I pushed myself to speak in English. It went okay (no it’s not).

Now, I can actually speak in English. Even though there’ll be a few errors at times, but I’m feeling comfortable of using it. And I guess, that's the most important thing for me.

So here are a few lessons I've learnt:

1. PRACTICE!

You need to be braaaaaaaaaaave and practice using English. It’s okay if you have grammatical errors here and there, you’ll get better after a while. Alah kamon la, even bahasa melayu pun, siapa yang boleh jamin yang dia bercakap tanpa kesalahan tatabahasa? ;)

2. Be confident.

3. Don’t mind people who judge you.

Actually, I haven’t met someone who is cynical about me speaking in English. People around me always don’t mind me trying. Some of them even gave me support. And some even waited for me to finish my sentence regardless how hard it was for me to do it.

4. Don’t give up trying.

Because the outcome is satisfying.

Oh oh I just got to tell you this. Have you ever heard of Adele's new song entitled Hello? I like this one cover made by Leroy Sanchez. His voice is pretty amazing. You should listen to it. Lol.

Well that’s it folks. Thanks for reading.

Much love,

Mierah Aziz.

P/s: Will be having 3rd semester exams starting next week. Pray for me! Also, I'm officially a mak cik. Lol. Got 2 nephews yesterday... they are twins!

Footnote: other than at schools, I did not grow up in english speaking environment. So this means a lot for me. And I just want to give support to those people who would like to try speaking in english. Huhu.