Clouds in front of the eyes

How can some people live with full of motivations ? It's like living in a fairytale . Because you keep telling yourself , everything's gonna be fine , everything's gonna be alright , you'll get through this , it's not gonna rain forever and what not . It's like everything is okay . No , everything is not okay . You're gonna hurt when you fall down , and you're gonna cry , your heart feels like torn to pieces and it's not okay with that .

The reality is too hurtful.

But actually, it's because I'm scared of the future and what has yet to come. Am I making a right decision? Maybe it's right for the moment, but not for the future.

And actually, it's because I fear the past. What I've done. I don't know how to live while thinking about my past and mistakes. I just don't know how.

Then, regret comes. What if I regret for choosing this path? What if misery awaits me? Who will help me to stand up on my feet again?

Living with motivations sometimes hurt me because sometimes I don't have anything good to say to soothe my heart. To calm my worries.

But Alhamdulillah, deep inside of me, there are still some voices saying that I should believe in Him, The Creator himself. After all, I am living in His world. Not mine. There are reasons for everything. Inshaa Allah. This might not be something that I planned since I was a kid, not that I really did plan something, but there's nothing wrong to it. I will do my best.

Motivations are motivations. But words from Allah are promises.

Mierah Aziz

Sisa

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. and greetings :)

Ramai dah yang dah masuk universiti . Tahniah semua . Berusaha kat sana . Perjalanan kita masih jauh . Ekekekeke . Oh mirah tak masuk lagi ... sedang menghitung hari lagi , menghabiskan sisa-sisa cuti yang masih berbaki beberapa minggu lagi ni . Ehh . haha

Almost 7 months of idling , nak masuk sekolah balik ni rasa macam takut la pulak . Last night , I read Who Moved My Cheese ? Simple je cerita dia . Antara pengajaran buku tu ialah adapt dengan perubahan yang berlaku sebab perubahan sentiasa ada . Kalau tak berubah , nanti ketinggalan . Well , I guess entering a new school is the change ................................................ so , adapt mirah , adapt .

Let's summarize things I've done for almost 7 months , shall we ?

Rasyamirahhhh xD

First of all , this bloggie . hehe . Made this blog with rasya . Mirah mmg nak ade blog tp selalunya tak konsisten dalam menulis . Mirah dah ada banyak dah blog -.- tp yang lain sume di-private-kan . hehe . So , ada blog dengan rasya ni , I guess I need to keep writing consistently lah kan ? Will do , Inshaa Allah .

Next , I got my driving license ! Haha comel gambar lesen pun =.= Alhamdulillah , takde gagal dalam mana-mana ujian punnnn heeee xD pelajar cemerlang keyy lol . Nak amik driving license pun lawak jugak . Banyak benda jadi . Jumpa ramai gilaaaaa geng-geng maher and pc . Had fun . Tapi mmg penat ahh . Sekarang ni , dah banyak jalan kat kb ni yang dah kenal . Dulu , jgn harap . Hahaha seronok gak ahh drive sana sini kena honk kena lampu besar nak langgar orang langgar pasu bunga nenek asma masuk parking kbmall tak lepas . Yeahhh terbaik .

Then , Mirah ada amik swimming class sebenarnya . Hehe . Dengan familyyyy . Abang abang kakak kakak kakak adik . Hahaha  boleh la swim tu , terer tak pun tapi boleh la swimm . hehe seronokk lol .

Hujung minggu pulak , well not for these 2 months , my sisters and I went jogging at USM . Hihi . sekali jog ade la dalam 3-4 km . Ceh cehhh nmpak tak fit tu ? Perasan .

Mirah pun banyak kali dah ulang-alik g mrsm pc . Mcm gigih kan bunyi ... haha . Cikgu pun macam dah jemu dah tengok muka . Budak-budak junior pun macam tak peduli dah nampak mirah kat sana . Hahahahahaha .

Ni masa Teacher Wanxu mintak tlg junior bwp

Ni masa Teacher Wanxu mintak tlg utk settle sijil biro bwp

-tak rotate maaf-
ni masa amik result spm wuuuuuuu

Tolong junior praktis debat

Teman nadhhhh xD

And ada lagi sebenarnyaa just tak amik gambar ... hihi memang banyak .

Then , KB MALL punya cerita . Haaa kb mall ni , kekerapan mirah ke kb mall ni , just a little less than ke mrsm pc . Ke sama banyak ... ke banyak lagi ... Macam banyak lagi je =.= Hahahahaha . Ye lahh , kalau nak meragam dengan kengkawan , kat mana lagi =.= *krikkrikkk*

dengan kanakkanak 3 Zahrawiiii 

Dengan kanakkanak 5 Nukmannnnn

Of course , banyak lagi sbnrnya ...

Tengok bola dengan family kat stadiumm

Went to beach

Had meeting with ansara kb

melukis walaupun ikut tutorial je...... hahahaha

Gi kenduri kahwin cikgu hafizz

In March , I went to selangor with my kaklong and abang ipar . Sebab abang ipar ada meeting , so saja nak menyibuk kan . Haha . Gambar takde kat sini ... heeeeeee xD

In April , I went to Penang .

Kakak's Graduation Day at USM, Penang

Then , from Penang , I went to Selangor , for MARA interview .

Interview kat Kolej Mara Banting

Then , baru aritu pergi selangor balik sebab cousin kahwin ...

Teman adik swimmingggg

So , maknanya mirah dah pergi selangor 3 kali dah cuti ni... Haha .

Next , mirah belajar baking . Huuuuu banyak kot buat kek . Gambar kat facebook , malas nk post kat sini . Heeeeeeeee xD Sodap pulak tu . hehe jangan jelesss .

Buku Dan Brown pun dah habis baca . Tapi tak sume la . Yang dah habis ; The Da Vinci Code , The Lost Symbol , Deception Point and Angels And Demons . Digital Fortress and Inferno tak beli lagi . Oh btw , Inferno dah ada kat kelantaaaaann . Lambat gila haritu lagi tunggu -.- hihi . For someone like me , yang tak suka sangat baca novel ni , kira okay la ni . Hehe . Sume buku Dan Brown best . So , sape2 yang tak pernah baca lagi tu , try ahh , bessst xD

Haritu , Sya datang rumaaaaaaaahhh . hehe . Seronok . Happy boleh jumpa >.< tapi sume gambar dengan sya . LOL .

And lastly , rasanya ada lagi tapi sebab dah malas nk tulis , so lastly , I spent most of my time with Facebook =.= hahahaha . ok .

I gotta admit , my holiday was not that bad . I mean , not totally an unproductive one . Haha .

Well , sekarang ni masih ada dalam 20 hari lagi ... So , ni lah sisa-sisanya sebelum berangkat ke Selangor , lagi , bagi meneruskan perjuangan dalam menuntut ilmu . Acewahh ayatt .

But yeah , kali ni , apabila bermula sesi pembelajaran kat sana , maka kesibukan melandalah . Cuti pun , berapa kali sangat . Ada rezeki , kalau ke luar negara , maka lagilah jarang balik rumah . Ini adalah perjuangan . Pertarungan . Pertempuran .

I AM A FIGHTER ! YEAHH ! hihi tiba2 ...

Semoga kita semua dikuatkan hati untuk menempuh segala cabaran akan datang . Inshaa Allah ... Amiin .

Adios ,

Mierah Aziz .